Forgive me Father for I have Sinned.

Forgive me father for I have sinned;

I have disobeyed you

Unheeded your pressing warnings

Ignoring your angry shouts

And gentle reprieves

Of what happens to little girls, who don’t brush their teeth

Forgive me father for I have sinned,

Taken up a yoke that was

Never mine to bear

Ignoring the fact that those with ears,

Must use them to hear

And not everything you see should be seen

Because once seen it cannot be unseen

Eric Jerome Dickey,

…Isn’t for little girls of only ten.

Forgive me father for I have sinned

Angered shouts at the TV screen

At the hewers and the drawers[1] of white supremacy

Lessons in self-defence and

Letters addressed to headmistresses,

Aimed at driving away the avalanche of bullies

Never grasping what you in your clumsy way

Could barely grasp yourself

To reject the world Ideals of Beauty

There is nothing wrong with a lot of colour

Keep your back straight!

You descendant of Royalty.

Forgive me father for I have sinned

I,

Myself,

Me,

Refused to take you clumsily given advice to heart

Instead I chased after the slave master

Like the rest of the world,

So now I look down at naturally bronzed skin

Mixed with flecks of gold and copper

Iron and Lead

And. I. hate. It.

I hate what I have allowed myself to become

Not once adhering to your admonishings

So now I hover mid-air, perplexed and lost

Struggling to grasp for what our

Ancestors so hard fought.

So forgive me father for I have sinned

Commission of acts of infidelity

Against my own race, skin and kin

Continually lying to myself

Blinded by how I allowed them, so they stole

My spirit and sense of self-worth

So now I wade through life,

Only halfway listening

To the proclamations and acclamations from others

Of skin so rich, it’s purple

And beauty so bold, it is flawless.

But I cover my eyes; and I close my ears

For I have sinned

And I begged my father to forgive.

[1] Joshua 9:23

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